Feeling Unproductive

I think one of the biggest differences between unschooling and attending highschool full-time, is that while I frequently felt that I was wasting my time at Central, I rarely felt like I was being unproductive. After all, there I was, in school, taking classes, busybusybusy.

Now that I'm unschooled, and frequently have large swathes of time to plan completely by myself, I often have overwhelming feelings of unproductivity. I should never just be sitting! I should be doing something worthwhile with every! Single! Second!

Of course, this sentiment is not terribly realistic. And I've found some pleasure in sitting, staring off into space, when I'm able to turn off the nagging voice in my head. I do a lot. I do enough. I write, I read, I advocate and educate, bike, do the dishes, sometimes I even shower... My life is fulfilling when I can stop and recognize that staying up until 2AM working on an English paper of Math portfolio does not make your life fulfilling. It makes your life busy, busy, busy.